Grump Central Archive: Week of 22 November 2020
Saturday, 28 November 2020
The last few days have been some of the most challenging of my life. I hope I have enough strength left to make it to the end of the year.
Friday, 27 November 2020
I haven't been modeling lately because I've lost interest in it. Every so often I try fiddling around with something, but within a few minutes I quit. I don't know if this is temporary or permanent; it's a wait-and-see thing—one of many changes I've been going through lately as my health continues a slow spiral down, my mood descending with it.
Thursday, 26 November 2020
The wild turkeys that roam my property are fortunate they're not targets for hunters. The turkeys and I all wish you and yours a happy Thanksgiving. Please be safe.
Wednesday, 25 November 2020
While I'm deeply disappointed that my Thanksgiving is cancelled, it has at least released me from the burden of preparing the house for company. I'm still feeling quite poorly, so the regrettable change in plans comes as a relief. Today I am remembering Katie, seen here on this day in 2018.
Tuesday, 24 November 2020
I've got nothing for today, other than the fact that I do not feel well. I just have this sense of dread that the time bomb in my chest is about to go off. It's disconcerting to the extreme.
Monday, 23 November 2020
I almost feel as if I'm sleepwalking though my days. Disturbingly surreal. Steve Roach's The Magnificent Void provides something of an aural equivalent to the feeling.
Sunday, 22 November 2020
Suffering a crushing, suffocating wave of depression. And just to pile it on, my lower back and knee have both gone on strike. I can barely walk.